A story of true love, heartbreak and emotional turmoil.
My True Love Story
The first person I met whom I thought was my true love I had met as a teenager. We shared an instant connection and I would have nightly romantic dreams with this person, when we were apart. There was a different feeling when I was with him and, I thought he was my true love.
Unbeknownst to me, during summer holidays, he got back together with a previous girlfriend and actually told me he never loved me, only as a sister. I would never forget that day, I literally felt my world come crashing down and I wished I would cease to exist. I went into a state of depression and turmoil. My self worth was so low that I convinced myself that that relationship never happened and it was all in my head.
While I accepted his decision (after all I felt no one would really want to be with me), I felt gutted and empty with 10 000 knives living in my stomach. I would constantly wish I was good enough to be with him.
Then one day, I had gone to a clairvoyant (which is normal in Hindu culture) on another issue, and she told me matter of factly, “if you don’t get over this emotional turmoil, you could get stomach cancer and die”.
I didn’t understand how my heartache could lead to cancer, but it scared me enough to try to ‘move on’ with my life.
I would eventually meet someone else who I thought was my prince. I would eventually marry this person whom I loved, thinking that I was finally going to have a fairy tale ending (didn’t the fairy tales promise once we got married it would be happily ever after?). I struggled through marriage, doing everything I could to ‘make him love me’ but failed miserably.
Another teaching from childhood is that once we are good we would be rewarded. So even though I was struggling in marriage, I kept believing if I keep trying to prove myself, he would recognize I loved him and treat me how I wanted.
After more than 10 years of thinking positive and doing affirmations, I filed for divorce. Only upon divorce I would understand how my low self esteem and worth shaped my destiny.
Following my divorce, I started to follow my heart to do things that I thought important. Read about this journey here.
I also started to do a lot of self work and follow my intuition. Doing this work, led me to doing things I loved and created a space where I began to truly love and honour myself.
As this happened, I started getting messages to help a friend (through my intuition). The more I followed them, the more I found them to have value and meaning.
Then one day, through a chance telephone conversation, everything assimilated. My friend was also receiving similar messages to me. We frequently saw each other in dreams, we knew when the other was sad, there was a telepathic like energy between us and most of all, we loved knowing and celebrating each others’ journey. I actually stopped feeling crazy and truly started to honour everything that I received. This journey of recognizing my true love helped me to understand my own energy and power which I now use in my coaching sessions.
In fact in one session, one of my clients who had a bad relationship described it as a black ball in her stomach. I was able to clear it for her, but now that I’m doing energy work, I completely understand how our emotions and the energy we store can develop into cancer.
Recognizing my true love gave me so much freedom! It was clear to me that the more we work on connecting with our highest self, the closer we get to worldly gifts like experiencing true love in this physical form. Experiencing true love can be through a twin flame connection or a soulmate.
See my video on twin flames here.
Twin flames understand that they come to Earth to help each other grow. While they are destined to be together, it will only come after learnings are completed by both parties. Twin flames often have mirrored lives.
A soulmate, can be romantic or non-romantic (eg your mother or sister can be a soulmate). A romantic soulmate can also come into your life after you learn to honour and love yourself in your most divine form.
Finding yourself opens you to meet persons who exist in a higher frequency and matches your vibration.
This means that it helps attract men into your life, who are happy, sure about themselves, honours the woman they are with and wants to be with them. Yes!!! They do exist! If you haven’t met them, it’s simply that you haven’t been open enough to receiving them. It’s kind of like only noticing white CRVs on the road when you decide you want to buy a white CRV.
So if you are looking for true love, or a man who honours every aspect of you whilst avoiding a dead-end or abusive relationship, the secret is to work on your self concept and worth. The more you honour yourself, doing things that you love, the more alive and happy you will feel thereby raising your vibration.
And guess what!!! The universe is conspiring for you to meet him just by you being here! This is the start or continuation of you understanding yourself as a truly divine being who is loved beyond measure.
Believe me, he is going to want to jump into your life…AND, you will have the power of choice to say yes or no;).
The ninja hack is to first recognize yourself as the true love you want in your life.
After 20+ years of emotional turmoil, I can safely say that I am the love I desire and, I am most grateful to have met my true love.
Get started by doing this meditation at the start of your day for at least 5 days. Notice the difference you feel and join my free facebook group to tell me all about it!! :)
Because of my struggle, I am completely passionate about women live the lives they truly want with a dream guy to share it with.
